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am gonna have an off day tmr, and will work three days a week from now on!! :) apparently there are not enough forms cos me and joy does it fast.. lol. but from then on it'll be hourly pay though, and i earn more in a day when i'm paid by form :( owell. haha.

went to watch confessions of a shophaholic ytd. it was good. expected it to be another chick flick but it's turned out real different! there were deep issues that the show dealt with.. and i was impressed by the ingenious set up of the play that kept me glued.

and.. Hugh Dancy is hot. love the curls and his character. hahaaa.

anw was walking beside the skate park (like i do everyday when i get to work and back) when some angmoh guy skateboarded across beside me and did some stunt in front and he fell right down in front of me. i gasped and muttered under my breath are you okay and he just shrugged and smiled like this is the 100th time falling down. lol. anw i think skateboarding's cool!! will wanna learn it one day if i ever get a chance to..

had in mind to blog everyday this week but i always get home exhausted. ugh. so yea. my brain's not functioning now too. and i got this nausea coming over me. must be too much comp.

gotta rest. ciao!

stop! before it's too late

have you ever been shocked, dismayed, apalled at what you have become- where the comparison of the past leaves you in deep wonder of the height that you have fallen from- the point at which the uncontrollable sliding begans- the slide that starts fun, grows exciting, and leaves your adrenalin pumpin.. you must know when to stop though, or a big 'thud' would greet you once you fly past the stopping point at the base of the slide-- a thud that would hit you back to the literal earth, and the metaphorical reality.

a thud -- i was warned of. that painful experience that accompany the sand on your pants. i'm reminded by my Constant Companion that the thud would hurt eventually-- and that makes me come to a screeching halt every time.

i don't dare go beyond because i trust. i trust that my Dad knows best.

Precaution --a caution that doesnt go unheeded. a caution thats already taken care of before danger opens it's mouth to speak into your life. temptations which you flee away from before you get eaten alive.

i'm glad i have a Father who cares enough to caution. to repeatedly remind me if i'm falling away so that i might be able to get back up.

warnings make me know that i'm still in the safety zone.

seek for wisdom and take precautions in your life today! you may never know when the thud would be arriving.

a stop sign isnt meant for stopping to sigh. a stop sign should bring about rejoicing!! :)

went for aud's schl (NUS) arts concert last night! it was not bad.. except for the first three performances. hahahaah.

nicky drove us there (from church) and afterward back to our homes (thanks again nicky). anw the journey was really longgg cos the concert was held at republic poly, but we were screaming and singing our lungs off in the car to random songs (backstreet boys, westlife, britney, switchfoot and bon jovi being the most popular). it's amazing how after screaming in the car on the way there, we still managed to scream in aud's concert. we were like screaming her name in almost every performance although she didnt come on hahaha. shouted declarations of love.. and i dared nicky to shout 'marry me'. haha! all in all, the dances were not bad, the singing by resonance was woooo.. and there was some instrument playing to MAMA MIA and that was lovely. forgot whats the name of the instrument ugh anw busy busy days ahead..

hello!

i love my work.

managed to listen to two sermons today, a BBC documentary (about the children in Africa taking care of their HIV parents.it touched my heart) and news, and the radio.

=D

all while typing of course. and i get paid doing this. hahahaha! anw new two guys joined tdy.. they're sitting beside Joy. the space arnd them's cramped up now man. and joy told me one guy had to sit on a stool. :(

who wants to go cycling... i'm dying to cycle. and the beach!

this week was exhausting, but enjoyable. have been coming home past eleven almost every night from cramming my 'life' into a measly four/five hour slot every night. hahaha. hav learned to treasure every single minute of the day now though.

work is interesting. the typing's quite mundane, and what added colour would be the amusing names of some of the ppl in sgpore, plus my ipod/radio BBC docs. w/o them dont think i couldve survived. hahaha. the ppl there are nice tho. the aussies and ang mohs are really really friendly.

will update again when i have the time :)

Luke 14:27 "And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple"

questions with (thankfully)answers

i ask myself why.

1)why am i not passionate about music, when i know the obvious consequence of this- a stagnation of the development of skills, my potential fizzling out as moments go by. why can't i love music more than i'm loving it now.

but i figured; loving something too much would present a danger of overthrowing the Person on the throne of my heart. i've heard of many stories. i guess that is why subconciously i have chosen to stay away.

2)why can't i plan ahead,my head not crafting that amazing future, one that i can be so supremely proud of when someone questions about my ambition.

at this point of my life, the pressure of choosing a path to take leading to my future gets to me. many actually expect me to know what i want, to have at least a hint what i would like my future to be. when i answer 'i have no idea', a blank stare follows.

this whole incident would get me feeling that planning my future should be the most important thing on my list.

but thats when i get stopped in my tracks.
by Him, by my parents....

why should i be pressured to feel anxious?

the reason why i have no answer for anything regarding my future is because, the next move i'm gna take has not been revealed by my Personal Planner. unless He says move forward, i will not budge.

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the next act of my life would be revealed this friday (presumably). the curtains would be pulled back, with me the observer watching with great anticipation. gladness would burst forth no matter what the Director has planned in His script, for i have enjoyed every part of the acts that went by(therefore having every reason to by so thankful), and am certain of the Director's best in the ending.

without Him, the show cannot go on.