a good weekend

these few days have been really really busy. on top of that, i found out that my schedule's filled till schl starts, with only one or two days to take a breather :( however, these few days are passing joyfully, with an awesome knowledge that the God is with me. His peace, joy and love has been felt even more in this past weekend, and im so grateful for His presence and His assurance. 

yesterday during BS, Auntie Kum Lin talked about loving the unlovable. this point came about when we were talking about the Beatitudes. (Matt 5:7) Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy. this point convicted me strongly, and at that point i reflected on whether i've been fufilling this command, if i've been choosing to care largely for certain individuals that i choose, and not do the same for the rest. God revealed to me that i've been sacrificing more of my time, my effort, to reach out and to care more for those whom i feel i have a 'connection' with, and those who i can click better with. This is quite disturbing as ive lacked effort in reaching out to those who i feel are better taken care of in the hands of others due to different personalities. However the Scripture commands me to love everyone regardless of who they are.. and to love would mean to spend time with them, to show equal care and concern as i would if im in that situation. 

During worship today i was reflecting again on this, and i was asking God to teach me to love unconditionally. to love the unlovable, and not to pick and choose who to love more. I felt as if i was hitting a brick wall when i asked God to teach me, until the Holy Spirit instructed me to receive His love. to not struggle with trying to conjure up more love in myself, but to receive from the source of Love. and that reminded me of the verse - Not by might, Nor by power, but by the Spirit. 

I was so encouraged by that. so encouraged that I had a bigger God who could help me in whatever i fail to do, and in also my weaknesses & faults. 

such a patient God, we serve :) 

would like to end with this song by Chris Tomlin - Made to Worship. was listening to this while gg to church (introed it to my mom too!!) and i hereby declare, this is my current crush. (on the fact that it speeds up my heart rate)